Memory Patterns

As I was talking to a friend about memory patterns and triggers I remembered a story that would help her understand what I was trying to say.  My friend had been dealing with an emotional pattern in her life that kept being triggered at a certain time of year. I was explaining that the same thing had happened to me years ago but if she didn't resolve it then the pattern would move from the emotional body into the physical body.

I told her that in my late twenties that I started to have a series of operations which seemed to happen consecutively every year for a number of years. Each year I would collapse with excruciating pain and then have to be rushed into the emergency room. The Doctors would look only to find that there were physical things happening to my body and then having to operate. My husband and I would then rejoice that the crisis was taken care of and continue with our lives until the next year. Then the pattern would cycle all over, and I would end up in the emergency room again. After about five years of this I was talking to my mother on the phone when she brought up that this seemed to be a pattern. I didn't understand why she would say such a thing since I seemed to have no control over collapsing, and writhing in pain.  Then she told me that she had been keeping a record on her yearly calendars of when this would happen and when I would be rushed in for an operation.

She explained that she had discovered it quite by accident. It all happened when she was transferring birthdays from one calendar to another, and came across the dates of my emergency operations. Then she started to look at calendars from other years, and noticed that every year around the end of April on a certain date I would have an attack like clockwork. At the time I thought she was making it all up, and went over to her house to look at the calendars. It was true the dates were all the same. I still didn't want to believe it so I went home, and looked into our personal records of admittance, and bills checking all the dates which correlated with what my mother had told me. It was crazy! It was then when I decided that this cycle had to stop. That all happened during the fall, and so when spring arrived I was prepared to deal with whatever was around the corner. April came, and went. It came, and went the next year, and the next without any hiccups.

It was many years later when I was studying energy patterns, and how memory patterns affect the body that I understood what had happened. Somewhere in my subconscious mind I had suffered an emotional trauma that was never dealt with. From what I gathered the trauma had happened to me during that time of the year, and had been lost in my memory. So my body as a defense each year would replay the trauma recognizing that time of year as a trigger. My part was to acknowledge that something had happened to me which allowed the emotional energy that was stuck in my body to release. The strange part is that I never remembered what it was that had happened to me, but I was able to convince myself that I was okay when that particular date on the calendar came around. Once I established I was safe the pattern broke, and there were no more operations.

I explained this to my friend. I also told her that from my own experience it is okay not to remember, but it is really important to change the broken pattern with positive reassurance, and affirmations that things have changed. Somehow if the mind gets this then the body starts to follow. One of my teachers used to tell me that things get stuck out in the energy fields of our bodies then work their way into the mind, and physical body. What I see that is really cool is........ that we have the power to change things by just being aware.