The Shards of Grief

 I have had my own experiences of grieving weather it was the loss of someone I loved, the loss of a pet, or even an event in my own life that caused my soul wanting to vacate the hull of the shell that is my body. In those moments I have had the opportunity to feel what it is like to lose something precious to me as my being is flooded with an unending emptiness, losing all hope of recovering. And then years or even days later I would wake up one day sensing that something had lifted only to recognize that the grief was gone.

 In those moments I find myself carefully doing a self check to see if it was my own imagination or just a tiny break that transpired while I was sleeping. It is like walking through a field of land mines wondering if I will step on a mine and it will go off. Most often I find that the grief was gone but in it's place memories attach to a knowing that it is going to be okay and the loss was only a temporary situation as  separation is only an illusion. So how does it all work?

I have pondered this in my own mind as the grief seems to have a life to itself. Each one of us on this earth handles grief differently and it is perfect the way we are all programed to move through the process.  But in my own path I have noticed that when I grieve there really isn't anything I can do to control it. My emotions and my body have the whole process down and it is better to just go with what I am feeling because if I hold it back it seeps into my life reminding me that I am not finished with the process.

So here is what I see... The mind, no matter how much it understands the situation or tries to put the loss together, separates from the physical form and is flooded by emotions. There in itself we have lost the battle of trying to hold it together. Our bodies then remembers the energy of the physical presence of what was lost. It is like someone stepping out of a room and the feeling of losing something that was there before. On an unconscious level when a death occurs we pick up the energy of the physical from no longer holding the energy of the soul on the earth as it transitions into the pure energy of the spirit creating a shift in our own energy fields. The same thing happens when we have a big change in our lives and our energy fields pick up on it because it creates a ripple hitting our emotions alerting us that something has been changed.

It is when all three parts of us unite as the mind, body, and spirit that we process the change on a much higher level sending the signals which calm the emotions while penetrating the energy field and spreading out through the physical from. This union is the game changer as now the mind and body is linked up with the field recognizing that the change was dictated and executed on a much higher level releasing us from the emotional grief.  As the shards come together we began to feel whole and are accepting of what unfolds in our live creating peace once again. For some this union happens quick and for others it is a slow process. I have experienced both. What we have to do is allow ourselves the grace to move through our own healing.

 Photographs by Ana - Taos, NM