Shadow Work

Dramas of the past can quickly turn into night terrors as one begins to do shadow work if not fully aware of the process. What is shadow work you might ask? It is what some may already know as the dark night of the soul. It is where a person can revisit old baggage that no longer serves honoring the experiences of a time when an old program may have been needed on a survival level. It is that time where the past can be reviewed to decide if old patterns are a necessary truth or something to be discarded to allow new programs to take it's place.

What changes the whole experience is the way one looks at the process. A person who is in fear mode may feel that it is something that is put upon them not realizing it is a privilege to let go of things that hold them from attaining a high level of awareness. Like the human body releases it's waste products so does the human soul to allow healing to hold the light of a higher consciousness. It is the transition before the butterfly emerges out into the world. A blessing in disguise.

Photograph by Ana

A Line in the Sand

Personal boundaries is a topic that we all know about and yet can be a very positive or negative obstacle in our relationships.  For some this may less of a hard thing to do and for some it is an area of learning how to master. What I discovered is that healthy boundaries are one of those things that we all need to have in our own lives and yet a number of people are not even sure what it is in their lives that they need so that they can create them.

Then the other thing that happens is that some people may have healthy boundaries in their personal lives often they don't have them in their professional life. While still for others this can be the opposite for them. Very seldom do people have it in both but when they do there is a deep penetrating respect that is honored by those who come in contact with them. 

As I began to analyze and take a closer look I had to ask the question of how many times do we draw a line in the sand and announce that it is a boundary only to cross it ourselves or allow others to step over the line? When this happens tiny grains of sand spill over into the line only to blur what was once a declaration of what is needed in our own lives. 

Then I remembered what one of my spiritual teachers told me once which was
, "We teach people how to treat us. It is up to us to hold the space for ourselves and what we stand for and when we don't, we end up relinquishing our own personal power to someone else."  Sometimes it is about stepping out of our comfort zone to hold the space when someone wants to cross the line or even when we get tired and want to cross it ourselves. That is when the real test happens and we make that decision in that moment to hold it or let go of our own truth.

photographs by Ana

Snap Back!

This past week the rubber band has been really prevalent in the work that I am doing. "Why?" you might ask? Well, it has to do again with energy patterns and one of my favorite topics on energy is the emotional body. What we have to remember is that an emotion is only set up as a warning of something that is occurring in our life that throws us off balance. When it does we have the choice to be caught up in the emotional drama or to recognize that the emotion is a red light signaling we need to make a self check on what is going on with ourselves.

So with that background, it is for us to understand that part of our human experience is that we sometimes fall into autopilot and when we are triggered by an event or another person we snap back like a rubber band into the old pattern, responding without thinking or remembering we have a choice in our response.

The really cool thing is that it works both ways. If we take the time to become couscous when our emotions are triggered we can train ourselves to override the old program of responding negatively or losing control. By mastering the art of controlling our response we send signals throughout the body that we are in a place of personal power rather then being victimized and that is the whole game changer right there.


One of the techniques of the martial artist is to be in control of the emotional body. Emotions can cloud the mind and take over the response of the body in a confrontation. The idea of the Snap back is that if we have been working on ourselves and we fall back into an old pattern we can always reverse the energy because what we have accomplished in our change is rewritten in our cellar structure and can be consciously called back. The idea is not to go into a downward spiral because we had a setback but to remember that the groundwork is already there when we participate in our own healing. It is then our choice to sever the tie to the old responses.

photographs by Steve Noyce

Namaste

Last week I shared a very personal story with a dear friend of once being in a difficult working situation with a person years ago who's energy didn't resonate with my own. The feeling was mutual. At that time in my life I had an opportunity to work with many different people coming in and out of my office during the day and so I stayed in the situation even though I knew the time for me being there was coming to a close. It was towards the very end that I had to really to look at myself and deal with my own baggage that was being triggered by this one particular person. I knew that as an energy practitioner this energy would not benefit or even help the people I was working with so I had to raise my vibration to unconditional love.

The problem was that being human made my defenses with this person come up as it did theirs. The really neat thing about the whole experience is that I learned a lot about unconditional love as the meaning of unconditional love is loving without exception. By staying in the situation I had the opportunity to learn how to see the other person without triggering my own fears.

Before I saw my first client for the day I would envision the person that I was not getting along with as a small child learning about the world themselves. Then I would see the love inside them and how they were connected to Source. It would be in that moment that I was able to plug into that part of All that is inside of them. Once I finished bringing that energy within myself I was able to be in the presences of that day fully loving that person and working with people without being distracted with the office politics. When I went home each day, though, my own stuff would resurface and I would have to work on letting this go only to return the next day to realign myself again with the unconditional love.

Eventually I did leave the practice but I learned that if I was conscious of a trigger from another person or in a  difficult situation I could see beyond what was being displayed before me and move into the Love. My friend, who was listening to the story, said, "I am surprised that you looked for unconditional love and connection to our Creator in a living person". A very valid question in which I was reminded  of the word Namaste very clearly in my thoughts. You see the meaning of Namaste is,  "The God in me greets and meets the God in you."  I have written that we are all connected and a part of the All that is. We are the grain of sand on the beach and our Creator is the whole beach but we are always in that connection and created out of Unconditional love. And so is all that exists as  everything only exists in the thoughts and one dream of our Creator.

Namaste,

Photographs by Steve

"Physician, Heal Thy Self"

I know at least one time in our lives we may have come across the phrase "Physician, heal thy self." So as an energy practitioner this is a guideline that most us try to follow which can lead down the path to some very interesting experiences.

Just a little background. I wanted to raise the frequency in my energy field. So, to begin, I decided to focus on my eating habits and the chemistry in my body. This meant cleaning up my diet, exercising, and drinking lots of water with lemon. Also, to complete the regimen, I did a full energetic body scan and found Candida. Knowing this really needed to be cleared up I made the decision to take the easy way out and jumpstart the whole process by doing a candida cleanse that I found at the Whole Foods market in the vitamin section. I soon found that the cleanse turned out to be a taxing  experience on my body when trying to keep up with my work and family schedules. Instead of raising my energy fields I ended up lowering them. Removing the toxins out of the body can be hard on it. Then I became tired and cranky, not allowing myself extra time to rest and heal.

Wednesday, I ended up having three different people call me, who were in crisis, that I have been working with in the past. Usually I can handle the energy because it bounces off my fields and I can hold my power but that day I didn't feel it bounce off and somewhere between the calls I began fighting a major headache and feeling flu like symptoms. Doing another energy assessment of my body I found that I was beaten down and was absorbing lower vibrations from the energy around me making me feel physically sick.

Exhausted, I fell asleep at 6:30pm with a heavy headache taking Tylenol which I never do unless I am in major pain and given up. At 9:30pm I awoke with not only a headache but my bones ached and I felt sick to my stomach. Again I tried to clear myself and it didn't work. I went back to bed and slept through the night only to wake up with the headache and flu like symptoms at 5am.

Here is the really cool thing!!!  Feeling sorry for myself, I woke up my husband Steve, who is a huge blessing in my life, and we started to watch a movie to get my mind off of my pain. Somewhere in doing that I had a barrage of images of things that led up to my situation. So here I am laying in bed that morning sick, and digging a bigger hole in which to wallow, thinking of all the phone calls I needed to make to clear the day, so I can rest when I was hit with a feeling of extreme gratefulness which came out of nowhere. The memory of my friend Mary who is an Acutonics practitioner who had offered a few days before to treat me to a tuning fork session on Friday as a gift would be there the next day to help me. With that gratitude it all of a sudden dawned on me that I also had the unique opportunity to feel what others feel when they are in this state of physical pain. It was in that very moment that I started to get really excited to be able to work on myself from the inside out instead of working from the outside in to find a way to help others.

As I was thinking about what I could learn, I got this tingling feeling inside my solar plexus that was so exhilarating that pure joy burst out of the solar plexus surging into my energy fields. It was like the excitement I used to feel when I was little girl and got up Christmas morning to see what Santa had left me. It happened so quickly. My body started to vibrate and I could feel the pain lifting and leaving my body. Within the hour all the pain and flu like symptoms were completely gone. My bones and spine didn't hurt leaving me with a feeling of being well, and empowered. I even went walking in our neighborhood with Steve and our little dog that morning.

Steve always asks me what I learned from anything I go through...

What  I learned... I was again reminded that we all have the power to clear ourselves and heal with the power of our thoughts and the way we look at life in general!  I am also grateful to the loving people that I love in my life who inspire me.

I kept my appointments that day...

Photographs by Ana, California