"Quotes from the Heart"

A few quotes from the heart celebrating Valentine's day... "To Love, and to be Loved, knowing we are created out of Unconditional love, is to know we exist." - Ana Noyce

1. "The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart."  — Helen Keller
    
   
2. "I would rather spend one lifetime with you, than face all the ages of this world alone." — Lord of The Rings
   
   
3. "The greatest thing you'll ever learn Is to love and be loved in return." — "Unforgettable with Love" by Natalie Cole
   
   
4. "Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the problem of human existence." - Erich Fromm
   
   
5. "Let your love be like the misty rains, coming softly, but flooding the river."- Malagasy Proverb
   
   
6. "Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end." -Author Unknown
   
   
7. “You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” -Dr. Seuss

             Happy Valentine's Day!

Photo by my sister Angelique

"A Lesson on Abundance"

Throughout my life I have heard many say that they wanted abundance in their lives. From my own perspective I have also felt that it would be wonderful to have abundance in my own life. But what exactly is it that we are really calling into our lives? I say this because it was a spiritual teacher who brought this to my attention asking me that same question many years ago. Of course when I thought about it back then I wasn't sure what I really wanted only that the word abundance sounded good and all my friends were asking for it. If my friends were wanting it in their lives it must be something that I needed in my life?

Then my teacher said, "Ana, what is in your heart? Remember it is the energy frequency that is in your heart which sends out huge signals to the Universe matching up those experiences that vibrate on the same frequency into your life. For example if you are in a high frequency and love is resonating in your heart and you ask for abundance, you will have the opportunities to have those experiences where love is called into your life. Know that love can be experienced in many forms and may not be what you had in mind. What you are given are different ways to recognize love depending on what the soul is needing to learn about it. Another example is if you had a loss, your heart is already experiencing loss so when you ask for abundance you receive experiences where you continue to experience losses in your life. When asking for attracting abundance is not something to take lightly or even do without knowing what it is you want." 

Side note: The heart is also known as the "Seat of the Soul".

After talking to the teacher I started to recognize the symmetry between my personal energy, thoughts and what influenced my own heart. I also began to notice that I was sending out unconscious signals that were not always in alignment with my heart and what I thought I wanted in my life. This proved to be quite interesting as I began to to really question what it was, that I was actually sending out when I was asking for abundance. Then it all started to make a lot more sense as I realized that the connection that was being missed was the balance between the mind, body, and soul. I am not going to say that it was and is easy, as it is letting go of a lifetime of old beliefs but it does work.

Being human I find that I am not always conscious of balancing the mind, body and soul as I do like everyone else on the planet who gets distracted with the physical world. What I am working on is being a lot more conscious of the connection. However, I find that it is true that the heart has a the upper hand in what we are attracting into our lives and sometimes it really doesn't match up to what we think we need even when asking for abundance. 

1st Photograph by my sister Angelique
2nd Photograph by Ana

"The Attractions in Our Lives"

The law of attraction not only applies to the material things in our lives but also to the relationships in our lives. One thing for sure is that somehow we are never were given a handbook on how all of this works so it is up to us to fumble through trial and error as we stumble through the darkness, wondering if we have made the right choices in our lives. As I have travel through my own experiences I have had numerous opportunities to visit with others who are moving through their experiences finding out that they to have had to change directions, that they find themselves in.

One of the biggest set backs of this kind of experience is to blame others for the choices we have made in our own lives. This type of judgement only leads to depression or anger. It also creates illness within ourselves and keeps us in the same energy frequencies in attracting the same kind of experiences to us. This is a key factor in looking back at the situations and understanding that there were real lessons in our life experience that needed to be addressed before going on to a different kind of relationship.

Now you may have heard the phrases that,"Opposites attract or like attracts like". This may give you pause to wonder which is it? The truth is that we as multi-dimensional beings don't always fit in a tidy little box. We are operating on a way bigger system than what our human brains can sometimes fathom. So to answer the question the answer lies in what the soul is in need of in completing it's self at the time of the attraction.

As humans it can be really hard to look back on an experience that may have gone incredibly awry. It is only when we are at a point in our lives that we can revisit a situation where we can see that the soul during that time was in need of that particular experience. Now I want to make it clear that I am saying that anyone in their right mind would want to be in an abusive or destructive relationship. What I am pointing out is that relationships most certainly play a key role in that persons's personal soul's evolution and even though a person may not be aware of a cretin situation at the time it is something on a deeper level that the soul is attracted to for the experience.

Something to remember is that since we are energy beings. We have different levels of energy frequencies that attract different people and experiences into our lives. When we are in a relationship wither it is a family member, friend, lover, spruce, coworker, boss, acquaintance etc... and one person shifts without the other to a higher or lower frequency this will often leave the other person involved feeling uncomfortable creating friction within the relationship itself. If they make the shift together then there is harmony within the relationship. Again remembering we are multi-dimensional beings and there is a lot more going on than what we are often aware of.

An example of this is if a couple is in a situation where they are both involved, such as heavy drinking and then one stops, it changes the dynamics of the relationship. The same with any kind of change such as spiritual practices, money, drugs, sex, obsessions, depressions, illness, loss, etc... it all changes the energy of the couple and how they relate to each other in the relationship. If they both change as a mutual agreement and are able to make a change together they will continue to move on as a couple but if not, then eventually the relationship will split.

It is only when we are able to look back without being critical and see the lessons that were learned during that time where we really grow, on so many levels. This is where we are able to learn not be hard on our selves as there is no judgment in being right or wrong with the attraction. If the lesson is learned, it will empower us to recognize and quickly make better choices in what is being attracted into our lives as we shift into a new energy frequency that no longer attracts those kind of situations into our lives.

Personally, I like to use this phrase when I recognize a lesson that I no longer want to repeat ....
"Been there done that!"

Photos by Steve Noyce - The Cosmopolitan - Las Vegas

"The Connection of the Mind, Body and Soul"

As I moved through my own life this week I found that I was highly aware that as we move into higher states of consciousnesses we begin to recognize how really important it is for the proper care of the mind, body, and soul. With this knowledge I had a strong understanding of the connections that what we think, eat and bring into our lives on a spiritual level all has a large influence on us and the world around us.

Now, I know there are many people who are already very much aware of this. It is only when we really look at the whole picture of being multi-dimensional beings or spontaneously having an experience that we can be reminded to take a step back. When we do this we began to notice the tremendous influence of this trio that is all apart of the natural learning curve in the evaluation of the soul's journey in transforming us into a higher state of awareness of our soul's purpose.

So when thinking about it the process itself ought to be relatively easy but even with this insight it often falls to the way side when we have to concentrate or even really focus on it which can somewhat blur the lines. Generally we are unaware of the three coming into union until we begin to shift in making a conservative effort to bring ourselves back together again. Often we can disconnect with any one or all of the three aspects of the trio that makes us whole when we are out living our daily lives.

As we begin to learn to observe ourselves in different areas of our lives we find that our thoughts, physical bodies and our spiritual connection combined play important roles in making us feel a sense of being united as a whole. This in itself makes us become more conscious of the connection not only to ourselves but to those incredible souls around us on all levels. When we make this shift we soon discover that we are not really separated from each other as we move through different experiences in our lifetimes but become more aware that we are all eventually reaching for the same goal.

By continuing to develop we see how important our thoughts are in influencing us in helping us to connect with others as well as our environment. We learn how our thought process in very crucial as we know that energy follows thought reminding us where we are putting our best efforts in and attracting experiences into our lives. It is when we are conscious of this that our minds began to expand opening new doors allowing us to see all different sides of our thought process that gives us more options in making better choices.

Then of course there are our bodies in which we understand more about how our they function, and survive in the physical world. Through our experiences each of us began to learn that there is more to us then just flesh, bone, and bodily fluids for now we have discovered the changes in our DNA, our diets and even the influence of the different regions which also impact the way we live and think. Our feelings of safety and health are important to all of us as it allows us to have the personal freedom to explore and understand more of how we function as a human being living on this planet.

Last but not least is the soul and the soul's journey. This is very important to our well being as we are continuing to evolve in learning the language of the soul through prayer, energy prayers and light languages. All of these forms of communication help us to align with our higher selves in connecting to God or what some may call the universal mind. By having this connection again we are reminded from where we originally came from and have that sense of being apart of something bigger then ourselves.

A while ago someone asked me out of the mind, body, and soul, which was most important to really focus on when working on self healing. The answer that came was all three of them because we are all three at once. One may call for more attention and that of course needs to be address first but it also is important to remember that the other two can be also out of balance. So by bringing the three back into harmony with each other allows us to locate the inner peace within us as we find comfort in the unity within ourselves.

The two photographs are by my sister, Angelique

"A Foot in Both Worlds"

I had a very interesting experience happen to me this past week. It happened while I was driving to the grocery store of all things. It was when I was in my car coming up to an intersection when all of a sudden I felt a slight shift and was deeply conscious that I really was a spirit being having a human experience. Now, I know the quote, "We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.” by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin.  I have even quoted this in the book I have written. This is not something new but in that moment it wasn't me seeing out of my human eyes in my own body. It was me seeing out of my spirit recognizing I was in a human body.

For a few brief seconds I was aware of more than just the routine drive to the grocery store and the tasks at hand. What I saw and understood on a much deeper level was well past my own life and even other people's lifetime experiences in their own physical bodies. In that moment I saw the connection of all the spiritual contracts with everyone in my own life and how we inner reacted with each other. I knew without question that this experience in this physical body was only a small amount of time as we would return back into our original forms of spirit in which that experience was massive in comparison of what we have experienced on this earth.

The analogy that came to my mind was like taking a trip to Europe and then returning back to our regular lives after the trip was over. This thought hit me as my brain tried to take over the whole experience in rationalizing and bringing into context of what was happening to me. As I sat there in my car I was aware that I was experiencing both the realities of the spiritual and physical worlds at one time. I could even feel my mind struggling to take back control of it's reality when again I felt a shift. When this happened I felt the whole experience began to slowly fade as a memory as I became more aware of driving to the grocery store with my grocery list still in my purse. By the time the light turned green for me to go I was well grounded in the physical world again but part of me was still in "awe" of the whole experience.

As I drove on I tried to put the whole experience behind me but knew if I ever wanted to go back to analyze what happened to me I could, if I really wanted to know more. One of the things that I have come to understand is that once you have an experience it seems to be imprinted in your memory. Today as I write the account of my experience I don't feel the need to question what happened. I know that what happened to me was very much real and that I am like everyone else on this planet a spirit being having a human experience.

Note:  I do not participate in recreational drugs to achieve these states.  They happen spontaneously.

Photo 1 by Steve Noyce at the Kimbell Art Museum, Fort Worth TX.
Photo 2 by Steve Noyce trees outside the Kimbell Art Museum, Fort Worth TX.

"The Age of Aquarius"

We are living in the Aquarian age and like the song, "The Age of Aquarius" says all the planets have aligned themselves along with the rest of the universe creating a higher energy frequency that has arrived with it. This means that we are also experiencing the shift of the pendulum swinging from one direction into a more balanced state of consciousnesses. We are now transitioning from the patriarchal energy pattern into an awareness of the feminine energies around us. What does this mean you may ask? What it is about is that we as multi-dimensional beings have the advantage as human beings to experience the whole change on multiple levels as we learn to bring both energies back into balance within and around us.

To help illustrate this I also want to point out that the element for Aquarius is water. Water is one of those elements that has the ability to change it's form from solid to liquid and then into vapor. We as multi-dimensional beings are also made up of the physical body, mind and spirit. Just like water we are all three and have the ability to be all three at the same time during our life experiences.

One of our many advantageous is that as we become more aware of the changes around us we can be active in making conscious decisions in helping ease the tension in the shift for ourselves and others. As we experience ourselves and each other on various levels it stands to reason that by making those adjustments we learn to shape our own lives to a higher standard of living that make numerous changes that affect us all. This also means that holding on to old baggage and thinking patterns that no longer serves the highest good can hold us hostage and even create illness within our physical and mental forms if we decide not to let go.

As we move through this energy transformation our DNA is changing as the universe is speaking a new language. Even the atoms and molecules are affected. The analogy that comes to mind of this is like saying that the old energy is more like large rain drops and the new energy that is upon us is now a fine mist.

Our physical bodies, mind and spirit are making the adjustments whether we are conscious of it or not as we are all realigning with the new energy frequencies as a whole. As this shift continues to happen there is nothing to fear as it is only the evolution of the universe. The quote that comes to mind is the name of the song by R.E.M. that says... "It is the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine." 



Note: picture above is in North Dakota. The other is of my little sister Angelique in Taos, NM.

"Surviving the Holidays"

As we look back on the holiday season with our families we can count our many blessings and our time together. Then there is the other side of this which is merging the many different energy patterns from all of the family members during all the get-together sometimes making the being together a little uncomfortable. This is why I think that the movie studios continue making holiday family films about dysfunctional families gathering during this time of the year. If you are like me you may find yourself laughing at the movies of this sort as some of the situations seem to mirror some similar experiences.

 Personally I find that holiday situations with family are some of the greatest opportunities to really learn about one's personal power. It doesn't mean exerting more power over another but learning how one maneuvers through tough situations when they come up. In those instances if one is aware, it is important to allow others to be who they are while still being in control of one's own personal passions and actions. I am not saying to relinquish one's power but to be conscious while standing back in observing all sides of a situation before making a commitment to any particular outcome. By doing this, helps in making wiser choices then being consumed in an emotional commitment and then trying to take over a situation because of the fear of losing power. I find that by looking at the whole picture and the different outcomes can help in discovering better solutions in merging energy patterns together making life more compatible for everyone involved.  

Then there are those times that our well meaning may be taken out of perspective and of course it is always good to have another tool that can help in those situations. This is a healthy sense of humor which can be a great way to survive an intense situation that may pop up when you least expect it. Laughing or making a joke of it at the time may not be appropriate but allowing oneself to really see the humor in the a situation will help to ease some of the tension within one's own energy field. Often just by doing this opens up the energy fields breaking down some of the tension in the room even if the other person is not fully conscious of what is transpiring on an energetic level. It is in no way intended to manipulate others but to ease the energy so that the energy walls are not bumping up against each other causing friction. When the energy in the room settles down, it opens up a brand new slate for open communication to commence once again provided that the conversation doesn't intentionally lead down the same path. 

When analyzing family spats or upsets as we all merge together during the holidays, it seems to be more about miss-communication and the different ways that we are all hard-wired in our own nuclear families.  What I find that is helpful is not making a commitment to any one outcome but learning how to even step out of my own comfort zone and trying something new. It is after all only for a few days or even weeks that we all get to be together. As I learn about my own discomforts I noticed that others are also learning about themselves and how they also match the puzzle pieces as we all merge together as a whole.

"Past the Five Senses"

The world we experience around us is not limited by the five senses. We as human beings have the capability to have some amazing experiences with the animals and world around us if we take just a little time to allow ourselves to connect. This is not a magic trick but being who we were created to be in living in harmony on the earth with the creatures, nature and each other.  There is so much more to us and our lives on this earth then we realize. Through my own experiences I have found that even the animals know our intentions and what we are about even if we don't.

 When I was growing up, my parents had a working ranch in Presidio, TX with horses and cattle. My mom likes to tell a story about the time that she was in the kitchen and I was two years old and was playing with some toys around her feet. She says she was busy with what she was doing and lost sight of me for a few minutes which was enough time for me to toddle out the door. Instead of hanging out in the yard, I had headed for the pasture where we kept the horses. At the time my father had bought a palomino mare that he was breaking in to ride. He was still working on taming her as she was high spirited. When I got to her she was rolling in the dirt on her back. By the time my mom found me I had already crawled through the fence and walked up to the horse climbing on her belly.

My mom first said she was horrified of what she saw but then she realized that the horse had stopped moving and was laying perfectly still as I sat on top of her. The other horses had gathered around me and were nosing the mare and nibbling on me.  Instead of running out in panic mom said she carefully went out and called my name softly coaxing me out of the pasture. I did eventually slide off the mare and crawl back through the fence into my mother's arms.  The mare then stood up shaking the dust off then ran off nipping at the other horses playfully.

Years later when I was needing time to myself I would walk out into the pasture and climb up on my big black horse whose name was Jupiter. He was a 16 hands registered quarter horse and the love of my life. All I would do was drape myself around him, as he grazed in the pasture, enjoying the calmness of his energy as he walked around.

When I was ten I would spend the summers with my father in Taos, New Mexico. He would go there to paint and to sell his art at his gallery there. Instead of renting or buying a house, he would set up his tepees and camp out on his friend's land. He always brought his horses, dogs, goats and sheep with him to keep him company. So, it wasn't unusual when we returned to camp late one afternoon after being in town all day to find our camp had been ravaged by a pack of wild dogs. After checking to see if all of our animals were okay and seeing that they were fine we headed into the tepees which had been heavily investigated. That evening was dedicated to cleaning up. As I was cleaning I got it into my head to tame one of the dogs to take care of.

The next day I didn't go into town to work at the gallery but stayed at camp. My father always took his dogs to the gallery with him so I was alone with the other animals that were there. Not sure how to go about it, I sat down outside and started to try to telepathically move into the field of the dogs. For the first few tries that day I didn't have any results, until late in the evening when I was trying again and heard a whimper behind me, then a low growl. Excited I didn't respond but continued to concentrate on sending out unconditional love to this animal. I had my eyes closed and then felt something come up to me and sniff around.

I wasn't able to see the dog as it kept hidden but the next day I tried it again and then again the next day. Finally on the third day when I heard the whimpering I reached out my closed hand out and was licked.  I opened my eyes and there sitting in front of me was a very scruffy medium sized dog looking at me wagging it's tail. That day was the beginning of a beautiful friendship and I soon had my own dog that I called Fritz.

Looking back I see that we all share the ability in remembering in not limiting our own awareness of the world around us but to live and experience past the five senses as there is so much that life has to offer us as multi-dimensional beings.

Note on pictures: 1st picture of Ana age 5.  2nd picture of father, A. Kelly Pruitt.  3rd picture Ana on father's horse.

"Fears and Phobias"

The lesson that kept showing up again and again this week was about fears and phobias. It seemed that every time I looked around I ran into some sort of fear with a phobia attached to it with myself and others. Even my son's golden Labrador who is a rescue displayed a sense of phobia when we took him for a check up at the vet. He seemed to think we were going to abandon him there and kept trying to climb into our laps to hide. He even started to shake as we held him and coxed him to finish his check up.

My daughter on the other hand had an incident with a spider in the bathtub and clearly had to have her father help her out with removing it to the outside. Even my cat who found a bug outside and finally ended up catching it with her paw had a conniption fit when she finally touched it. All we heard was this loud wail and complaining in cat language. Looking out the window we saw her shaking her paw profusely complaining that it had wiggled. She is an indoor cat. When checking in with myself, my fear of losing a friend who was diagnosed with breast cancer in stage 3 reared it's head, even
though I know she has a good chance of surviving the cancer.

When I thought about the feeling of being fearful I remembered being a small child and my father telling me that fear was really a tool to help us navigate through our lives in what may or may not be healthy for us. Our fears were not ever meant to rule us or make us miserable. If we allowed our fears to take over and develop into a phobia then we have the potential for them to shut us down, stopping us from experiencing and seeing the whole picture. What we can learn from this is to take the time to really analyze what makes us fearful, then we are able to decided if it is something we can move through to heal or even step around it.

 As I continued to analysis what fear is all about, I could see that if we continue to feed our fears then in the long run it can make us physically ill or even take over our lives. One of my friends who is a firewalker once told me that, "Fear is about stepping out of our comfort zone." Looking back on my week with my family I saw that even though some of our fears we can laugh at, some of them could become miserable if we let them take over. In the end all I know is that if we live our lives through our fears then we miss out on a big chuck of enjoying our lives and each other to the fullest.

"The Self Saboteur"

I was having lunch with a dear friend the other day and she wanted to know about the archetype of the self saboteur. I had to admit to her that I had seen that energy pattern in some of the people I have known during my lifetime but I was not able to trace the source of the catalyst that perpetuate it. I did however tell her that I would send it out into the universe that I wanted to know the answer and see what came to me.

It didn't take long to get an answer. A few days later I was at the Halfprice bookstore browsing through some titles looking for something to read. I found a book called Riding Between the Worlds, "Expanding our potential though the way of the horse," by Linda Kohanov. This book caught my eye as I had been interested in taking horse back-riding up again and loved the idea of the energy connection with the animal. As a strong animal lover it was just right up my ally.

I have to say I was surprised on how quickly my small prayer was answered. There in the first few pages in the book was the answer to what my friend had wanted to know about the self saboteur.

Just a side note: Even though the author didn't label what she was describing as the Self saboteur it matched up to what I have seen and heard from others who are in this energy pattern. Here are a few quotes from the book that I found on page 5 which were quite informative.

Page 5 (Second paragraph)

"Rigid narcissistic parents still inflict untold suffering on family members who assert their own needs and desires. Those growing up in abusive environments can feel downright terrified by success." 

Kohanov also goes on to say that abused children, "Are wired to expect any rise in self-esteem, personal expression, sexual excitement, love, joy or connection to end in tragedy or shame. They often pass these debilitating behavioral and emotional patterns onto their children, even if, as adults they manage to break the cycle of overt physical abuse."

There was quite a bit more but this is what caught my attention. I was excited the next day to call my friend and share the book with her.  

"A Topic On Healing"

I was having a very nice conversation with someone the other day and the subject that was brought up was about us healing as multidimensional beings. I love the word multidimensional because it really describes us as human beings, as we are all spirit beings living in a physical body. The way the conversations went was really about how we need to take care of ourselves a whole being and not forgetting that we are both.

From my experience of talking to many people about the subject there have seen a lot of controversy of how we should manage our health care. The pendulum swings far in both directions when this discussion is on the table. Different people are very adamant about what they feel is the right way to go when looking at holistic healing compared to the physical medical field. Some of the people I have talked to only want to go the natural way of healing while there are others that think holistic medicine is a bunch of, "Hooie".

What has been brought to my own attention is that together both methods of healing work very well hand-in-hand. They not only seem to compliment each other but have the ability to treat the whole person when both methods are applied appropriately. My own hat goes off to those hospitals like Harris Methodists in Fort Worth, TX who promote the Healing arts program along with the physical way of healing. I have been informed that there are also other hospitals that are using energy healing in different forms to promote the healing process such as the Healing Touch, Reiki or essential oils.

When looking at the big picture it seems really important to remember that we are both, not just flesh and blood, but also spirit. If we stop thinking about the controversy over separating the two, we can see and experience the benefits of both methods of healing working together for the most optimal healing for us as multidimensional beings.

"Experiencing the Holidays"

Something that came to my attention this past week was being aware of how one can become over stimulated with all the activity during this time of year that comes with the holiday season.  As dimensional beings it can be somewhat of a challenge in taking the extra care in processing all that is happening within ourselves and all around us. When moving through our own experiences in the 3D world we often forget that we are processing most of it beyond the five senses. These other senses help us to navigate in making sense of our situations so that we can understand and learn from what we are moving through.

As the holiday season progresses we also find ourselves in positions that we not only experience in the now but which also collide with the past and future at the same time. What I mean by this is that during this time we are honoring and bringing in past traditions as we create new ones in which to hold our celebrations in. It is during this time we also began to weave our ideas of what the future will look like as we fill in the empty spaces of how it will all turn out.

Being part spiritual beings we have the opportunity to offer our own expressions in the world as we blend with each other in coming together in celebration. By adding other people into the mix it can be a rather interesting progression of ideas, feelings and frustration that can sometimes throw us off balance if we are not aware of the other energies that are moving into the mix. These feelings and experiences can be felt by others and be somewhat contagious feeling good when we are in those higher frequencies. The same can also be felt when we are in the lower energies. That is why it is always a good idea to be aware of what signals we are sending out as we affect each other.

 The other part of this is that it can be rewarding and very enriching is observing others in how they experience and express themselves. It is when we truly allow ourselves to not worry that things are not going the way we expect and take that time to relax, it takes a great deal of the edge off the whole event creating somewhat a relief as we find joy in what we see in ourselves and others.  This in itself becomes the magic of the season...

"The Queen Bee"

The archetype that made itself known this week as I became aware of the interaction of energy exchange between the many different people that I was in contact with was the queen bee. Out of all the archetypes I find this one particular fascinating as it is a lot more common than I think people realize. Most often this energy pattern can be over looked as it can at first be very subtle until it rears it's head catching anyone who stands in its way a little off guard. The red queen from Alice in Wonderland seems to come into focus when she wants to take people's heads off.

From standing back and looking in on the outside, the Queen bee is an incredible energy force who has a great deal of charisma and power that she holds over her subjects and the environment she rules. What is interesting is it seems that her subjects are not aware that they are under her hypnotic influence as they follow her while executing her every command. If a subject seems to have awakened from their trance they often try not to let on, so as not to rock the boat. These subjects have a tendency to be very passive aggressive as they may have been reprimanded for being outspoken or thinking outside of the domain of the kingdom at one time.

The queen bee can be in all walks of life. She doesn't just don't show up in the work environment or school as she can be found ruling over different circles of friends and even her own family. She is a strong social energy as long as the direction of the event or environment is geared to going her way.

As this archetype continued to make it self known, I started to become aware of a common thread that lead to creating this archetypal energy pattern. From what I observed, this archetype is not a born trait but more of a learned reaction to a life experience that creates the queen bee syndrome. This experience seems to be related to a break in the father and daughter relationship long before she became an adult. This can be due to some sort of betrayal, neglect, abuse, or even abandonment. When this happens she learns to become aggressive in competing with other females for the attention that was not bestowed on her by her father. This break in the relationship creates a energy betrayal that is in desperate need for that balance of the male and famine energies that create harmony in her life when growing up.

On both the professional and personal side she then develops qualities of being competitive with both the male and female energies. From her past experience she has learned that any loss of power that represents the male energy have rendered her powerless and therefore she continues to control anyone who comes into her energy field. This form or control can be strong enough that it becomes a determent to the people who fall under her or even have to work side by side.

What one must remember is that the queen bee archetype is not really about other people but a smoke screen in appeasing an old wound that has not healed and has begun to fester unless treated by professional counseling. Again the queen bee archetype is a great force to be reckoned with and again can be missed until challenged at any point. If you know anyone or run into this energy pattern then I suggest to proceed with great caution and a deep respect in knowing what is really going on underneath.

"Reflection of the Self"

Last week I had the chance to sit down and really visit with one of my friends and as we were talking she said something that I thought was profound. She made the statement that, "We talk about abundance but we only allow ourselves to have what we think we deserve. It is because of this that we limit ourselves in what we really want in our lives. "Wait a minute!" I thought as the word "Allow" seemed to come into focus. Suddenly I recognized the word and understood it's influence. I already knew that we can attract things in our lives, that was the easy part. What had not come to me was the thought that we allowed ourselves to have things.

That meant that we limited what was attracted not only by choice but unconsciously by what we thought we deserved. The more I pushed this idea around I could see all it's limitations. While I knew it was true that we can hold ourselves back, even when we really asked for something or wanted something in our lives, I hadn't seen that we really stood on the threshold of not allowing ourselves to have it. Then I remembered a pastor at a sermon saying it was in the Bible to "Ask and you shall receive". I thought about this some more and wondered if we did ask but think we didn't deserve it, then we wondered why it never manifested, at least I did.  

Sure we can say that we want something in our lives but when it comes down to it, I wondered what causes many of us to step aside feeling awkward when we get it. Then the thought of when we do get something we really wanted, how many of us think, "It is too good to be true" wondering when it will end missing out on enjoying the real blessing of the experience of what we asked for. So in that thought process I decided to let it rest until I had an experience that I could draw more information in allowing something to happen in my own life.

That was when I made up my mind to test it. I did a self analysis and asked for a few things in my life that I felt limited on. I didn't have to wait long, as the very next day I got an invitation to something that I really wanted to be a part of. When I got off the phone I noticed that I was nervous and even though it was something that I really wanted to participate in, I was worried with some sort of fear attached.

There it was in my own thoughts that I had allowed myself to think outside of my own limitations and then wanted to pull back, feeling uncomfortable when offered a new experience that I really wanted to do. This made me aware that I had limited my own choices before becoming aware of the limitations that I had set for myself. I also understood as I explored the emotions and energy around being handed what I wanted, that I could very well feel me trying to block the energy in allowing myself to grant it. When I went inside myself for a deeper understanding I found that it all seemed to stem from a fear of stepping out into something completely new and a fear of not being able to hold the space until it all manifested.

After exploring the energy around these thoughts and emotions, I made the choice to release it all by accepting that I was loved unconditionally. This one action was extremely powerful and as I let myself accept the love, a feeling of total freedom and peace flooded in instantly erasing any feelings of fear or regret.  Then a the feeling of complete acceptance that I was the one who had the power to release myself from holding myself back began to register. It was true, we are given the keys to the universe and yet sometimes we don't even realize we have them.

"The Energy Exchange"

I was invited to lunch by a dear friend the other day and what came up in our conversation was the question about energy exchanging. As energy beings we automatically exchange, share, and move energy without even being conscious of it, as it is as natural to us as breathing.

One of the subjects that seems to come up when talking about energy exchange is the fear of being drained by energy vampires. I do want to point out is that we all have the ability to control what is being given and what is being taken when we are with others. The trick is to be aware of what is going and coming into your energy field. If you feel as if you are invaded or drained, then you can do something about it. The first thing is to do a quick self analysis. Ask yourself if the feelings you are picking up are really yours. If you feel drained allow yourself to become more aware of what is going on around you.

One thing to remember as energy beings is that our energy bodies when depleted of energy often will pick up energy where it can and when it is around others to balance and complete itself. It is kind of like an unconscious craving that it needs to be satisfied. Even our physical bodies respond the same why when we crave something in our diets that it needs. It is the way we all keep in balance as we all swap energy back and forth when we interact with each other.

The only problem is that when a person energy field is weak or has holes in it they are more susceptible to becoming drained or even feel sick when around someone who is also in more need of energy support. On a different scale a person who's energy field is strong and healthy that is well connected to the Source has unlimited energy and will have the ability to share supporting itself and the other field that is weaker. However I do want to make a note that I have also noticed that when we leave our energy centers wide open and walk into a huge room with a lot of people it also affects us if we are not mindful of being connected directly to Source, in that moment. Again it is all about being aware of what is happening and going on around you.

If you find that you are being drained or feeling that you need to stop the energy exchange there are several things you can do. One is to go into a mediation or prayer finding your connection to the Source and reconnecting. If you feel uncomfortable or not in a place to do that then you can block the energy exchange until you have the opportunity to reconnect and work on your aura's energy field. The quickest way to do this is to imagine a ball of golden or blue light that covers your whole body. This light becomes a shield that can be programmed to reflect other's energy influences on you at that time. Later when you have time you can expand the golden light all through your aura field to heal and repair any holes in your energy field. If you are are a Reiki practitioner you can use Reiki to block or reconnect. These are only a few suggestions as there are countless ways to work with this and it is all about what resonates best for you.

As human beings we have the best of both worlds. As we all become more aware of the our own energy fields and all the energies around us, we find that we have to ability to step into our own personal power. We lose the fear of others draining us whether it is conscious or unconscious. Once we understand this we can learn to work in a more balanced and harmonious way with ourselves while helping each other.

"Speaking Ones Inner Truth"

Children are amazing as they say what they feel or want to know about things without thinking twice about what they have said. On one hand this can be refreshing, but on the other hand it can be horrifying as we find ourselves faced with a truth that is not what we wanted to hear. As we all progress into adulthood we learn to curb our tongues and may even go so far as learning not to express our inner truths. So then we are faced with the dilemma of not knowing how to share our true feelings with those around us in our lives. Eventually this can become serious as it can sometimes lead to dysfunction or even illness within the body as we become afraid to speak up.

This was the pattern that came to my attention this week that continued to show itself in all the different relationships in and around my own life. The pattern was about knowing when to honestly speak ones own truth. What surprised me is how common this was in all the different situations that I was in, being able to observe or be apart of. What became apparent was the spur of emotional aggression from the misconceptions of what was not being spoken openly. What I observed while talking to people in different scenarios of relationships within their lives was the fear of being afraid to really let people know what was being felt even when it was not deep within the soul.

As I looked back on many years of conditioning I could see that by not being honest with ourselves and others,we can create situations where we find that we have lost or given away our own personal power. This only progresses into resentfulness or even passive aggressive feelings and behaviors, as the situations escalate perpetuating blame on others for putting us there.

I am not talking about letting others know what we think of them. This is not about judging or telling other people what to do at all but learning to let others know how you feel while staying within your own integrity. What I did find was that most are afraid to hurt someone else by honestly expressing their feelings even when asked to do so. The other thing that made it's self known was rejection or being judged for feeling a certain way causing anxiety.

All this only brought more into focus that if we as human beings hinder our ability to openly speak the passions of the inner soul, we not only create situations of chaos within our own lives but also in others. Again there is always a balance of knowing that there is a time to speak up and speak our inner truth knowing that the people who are in our lives may be affected. This is a lesson that if we don't learn is a lot like the value of money as it deflates through time.  

" Reflections"

One of the lessons this week that really caught my attention was learning how to release cellular patterns within the cells that have trapped past emotional scars. This is important because as we move through our lives our cells download information from our experiences that is transferred to each cell that replaces the one before it. It is like a written diary of our experiences recorded within our own bodies. You may have also heard the term "muscle memory," well the whole body is like that to some extent.

Now everyone at least once in their lifetimes goes through some kind of emotional trauma or heart break. It is just part of our human experience. But what I found so fascinating was that even after we work on confronting these emotional injuries and healing them, some of the trauma may still be left over as it was recorded somewhere deep within our cellular tissues. So often when we think that we have moved passed it all then something totally out of the blue triggers a response from an old wound bringing back emotional attachments to an event or occurrence. It is not until we revisit the emotional incident without being affected by it that we make some progress in healing to have peace in letting go of the trigger.

An example of this would be over eating. There are many reasons why a person over eats but I am only mentioning a few to help demonstrate the process. One example is a person who has not been able to have enough food and when they do they over compensate for not having it. Another example is someone who is emotionally abused who uses food as an emotional crutch. Physical abuse can lead to over eating to gain weight to protect the body. All of these tendencies are usually unconscious leaving the person wondering why they are over eating not really recognizing that there is another reason for it.

Most people have learned the process of bottling up or blocking the emotions somewhere in early childhood. Because of this it can be hard to let go of trauma or old wounds that still reside in the emotional, cellular and spiritual bodies. It is up to each individual to learn from and process the information that is brought up in allowing the energy pattern to flow and move out of these bodies. Emotions are neither good or bad as they are there to help us learn and gather information form an experience. If they become blocked in these bodies they can lead to emotional trauma or turmoil or even illness within the physical body.

A Technique 

 Something that is taught by some spiritual teachers is to take a few moments to go in a quite meditation  finding your center. Then you can scan your body while asking where the block or emotion is coming from. By doing this it will help you track down where it is within the body that is holding on to the block which can be very telling of what is going on with the self. If you are familiar with chakras you may want to work with the body that way and if not, then you can sit with the energy to locate the energy block. These subtle energies may show up as a sound, color, signal, feeling, memory, picture, or it may just tell you. Take whatever shows up without judgement only allowing yourself to recognize and accept what is showing up. After locating the blocked energy in the body it is important to ask that particular part of the body, what memory was trapped within the cells that caused the emotion or physical trauma to stir up. Trust what comes as it will be embedded within the cellular structure of the cells. 

If you have a memory with the emotions attached honor what it is being shown to you. Grant yourself the chance to process the information and let the energy move out of your body and energy fields by finding your sense of center and grounding it in love. Healing may not occur in one session so you may want to revisit continuing to work allowing the energy pattern to move through and out of your system. After all we are energy beings and energy was meant to move not stand still or become stuck. After each session then imagine a big ball of golden light filling your up aura and your body. By doing this it allows the  healing light to enter and heal the cells and any emotional and physical scars. 

As we learn to honor our feelings and allow the energy to flow through us we become balanced, while embracing the higher energy frequencies in and around us. We become more open and in tune with our higher self and with Source. It is this that we remember from where we all came from and which we are a part of. 

"The Rescuer"

Ah... The rescuer, what do we know about the rescuer? A very interesting archetype. There are two kinds of rescuers that tip the scale. One is a rescuer with healthy boundaries who knows when to help and when to let go.  But on the other side is a rescuer who doesn't know when to let go which can lead into a toxic relationship that follows a pattern of codependency.

 The healthy balance for a rescuer is to accompany someone up a mountain rather then to carry them up the mountain. Sometimes this can be the hardest part for the rescuer who has a huge heart for humanity as they watch someone continue to struggle. The real growth emerges as long as a rescuer has healthy boundaries and doesn't fall into the category of enabling which allows the other person to learn from their own mistakes.

 I once had a spiritual teachers share with me that sometimes when we rescue a person we can take away the blessing of a lesson that the person we want to save is in need of learning. Then she told the story of an old man who happened upon the butterfly that was struggling to free itself from its cocoon. With great care he gently began to free the butterfly helping it from the binding of the cocoon. Once it was free he sat there with it in his hands as the butterfly tried desperately to spread its wings only to end up dying. In the end it was the struggle of exiting the cocoon that created the strength in the wings for it to fly and live.

As we walk this earth we have the gifts to love, support and inspire each other on our journeys. The rescuer is a magnified projection of this, but like all things it is the gentle balance that makes the difference.....

For more information I would recommend the YouTube video on the rescuer archetype from Caroline Myss:

The Wedding Pot

A few years ago as I was getting ready for a friend to come over for tea, I decided to pull out my grandmother's old tea cups to make it a little special and honor her. When I looked in our old china cabinet for the cups I found a gift from my wedding 19 years ago.

There it was, displayed in the case for show, but long forgotten. What really struck me as I picked it up was that I was transported back to that time. There I was sitting in my friend's living-room in the past opening a box and pulling out the wedding pot and examining every inch.

One of the traditions that my friend told me as I held it in my hands was that the Pueblo Native Americans where we lived, give a Wedding pot to the newly-weds as a gift. It was a vessel with two separate openings at the top which flowed down into the belly representing the two becoming one joined together, holding life within.

Beautiful story, I remember saying but as I held it I dropped it and it cracked. "Oh No", I said as an overwhelming sadness came over me, but my friend pick it up and said," Ana, "it's OK and I am glad that happened because you need to understand that nothing is perfect. Life is certainly not perfect and marriage is not perfect."

"There are cracks in everything as there are many disappointments in life but the real key is the love and the extra care that glues it back together that becomes the strength of the vessel. "

Then time began to move again from the past to the present as my marriage flashed before me in a collage of pictures and emotions, some bitter and some sweet. Life was such a good teacher and here in my hands was a small reminder of what life was all about.

As I placed the pot back in it's spot I could hear the doorbell ring. It was time for tea.

The Gift of Stones

I have had a lot of people ask how the different types of stones have healing properties, and the best way I know how to explain this is by the atomic make up of the stones.

As most of you know from science classes in school everything is made up of atoms. Everything has its own way of being put together with the atoms so that it is created. With this simple idea you can then see that a piece of jade has a different atomic structure than a diamond.

Now, think of the ways the atoms move within each stone. You can't see them with your eyes but you know they are there. Also, know that your energy field can pick up the movement because your energy field is also made out of the atoms that are constantly moving.

So now you have a person who's energy field is weak because of something they are going through. Remember to that emotions are energy, so that means their energy is not vibrating as high as it would if they were happy or excited.

For example....emotional trauma which like to settle in the heart area. Ever have a heartache? A stone like green diopside resonates a healing vibration of atoms that helps sooth the heart as it fills in the gaps. Almost like a cup of herbal tea only you don't drink it. "Smile"

It is like a guitar in a music store where you can pluck a string and the other guitars will resonate on the same string even though you never touched them. They are in tune with the vibration of that note. You are no different than a fine tuned instrument that can get out of balance or tuned. And the things that are around you are also inline with your energies as you live on this earth.

Don't forget that color also has a vibrational energy that can be measured and will also help with healing for the same reasons. They can play a big part of why you reach for certain colors in stones as you need to be in sync or need that healing property in your energy field.

No magic here, just science. A natural process of living...

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The Sacred Dance of the Masculine and the Feminine

I had the opportunity to watch the movie Moonstruck with Cher and Nicolas Cage the other day. The one phrase that I never have understood in that movie that always catches my attention is the one the mom says which is "The reason men chase women is that they are afraid of death." This one phrase sparked me into exploring what that was all about. As I started to turn the questions over in my mind I remembered the story my father had told me about he Great Spirit who dropped his creation and when it broke it wanted to return to it's original form. The other part of the story is that it had separated into pieces but one of the pieces separated into the male and the other into the female.

Now as I took it a step further not just on the physical level but on the energetic levels of masculine and feminine energy I could see that we as individuals are trying to find that balance within ourselves. But to do this we are using the simulation of the different relationships in our lives that are outside of ourselves to learn about the process. So with that thought in mind I started to look at all my relationships and others around me with the connection of being created out of one form. If that is the case then as individuals we each carry different varying degrees of masculine and feminine traits that are unique within each of us from our own soul's journey. That means that each person would want to find the combination for another half that matches their energy pattern to complete themselves, to create an equal balance of both, to have a healthy relationship with another individual.

To better look at a pattern lets take for example an individual who carries a very strong masculine energy pattern, which could be either male or female who finds the opposite of themselves in a relationship with someone who is extremely feminine. This relationship would balance out the missing energy pattern in both individuals and compliment the relationship as a whole. This is because each male and female aspects of the relationship finds comfort and usefulness in the relationship of the other. But lets say in another example that we took the same individual who is very masculine who is now in a relationship with someone who carries a feminine energy pattern with more masculine energy than feminine which then throws the match off balance. The masculine energy might become needy in the relationship wanting more nurturing then the smaller amount of feminine energy can offer. Now the masculine energy starts to look for other ways of satisfying that need. These are only two scenarios as there can be countless examples depending on what is within a person's energy field to balance out the two energy patterns.

As I followed the trail of this thought process I remembered that this is not a new story as the ancients used the yin and the yang to explain the energies of balancing both the masculine and feminine. What was exciting was that when I became aware of this I started to see energy patterns in relationships that followed this process. To some degree this would explain why there are divorces and infidelity in some relationships and not in others.

Then the masculine and feminine energies went in another direction as there is always change in the universe. What came was the reminder that people change and their energy patterns change through life experiences scrambling everything up as people release or become stuck in old patterns. A once healthy balance may become unhealthy for the individuals as one or the other in the couple changes or not, creating an imbalance within the energy pattern of the relationship. If the couple can not bring balance back into the relationship then it creates friction that may cause them to split. This also works the other way around to, bringing a couple together that was not likely to get together only now are very compatible.

If you get a chance to watch Moonstruck you may want to examine the relationships in the movie. By using the feminine and masculine energy patterns you can see how those relationships balance out. Then you may want to look at your own relationships and those around you. Going back to why men and women chase the opposite sex or energy pattern, I want to add women to make it even is that we are looking for that balance within ourselves to complete ourselves as we are all looking to find the connection as a whole.

"The Language of Energy"

My daughter and I were driving the other day doing some errands when someone honked at us. It made me think about how different it was when I was in India visiting some friends and the drivers there honked all the time. They are even encouraged to honk. Here in the States it is not as accepted and some people may even be a little offended by being honked at. This line of thinking then made me think about the thoughts that we send out that could be triggered by a single action. I also became aware about how we respond in our different cultures to something as simple as a horn honking at us.  

With this in mind I remembered what my grandfather used to tell me how powerful our thoughts can be. If we really think about how much we change and create the world around us just by how we shape our thoughts it is almost mind boggling. A single thought can lead to an action that is behind an intention which creates the energy to bring it into existence. My grandfather used to always remind me to have positive thoughts. At that time I didn't understand what he really meant. Now as I am older I understand more what he was trying to teach me.

As multi-dimensional beings we have the ability to send energy to and around those we think about whether we are conscious of it or not. With this knowledge as conscious beings we can now be more responsible for what we think and the energy that we send out into the world and our own lives. The power of our thoughts is it's own energy language and has so many benefits that are right there within our finger tips. How do we use it some may ask? Well, to answer that you are already using it. The idea now is to be aware of how you can use it.

A technique to help access positive thought patterns can be through fond memories which are a wonderful resource of stored emotional energy that is not only recorded in our brains but also in our cellular structure of the things that we have experienced at one time or another in our lives. All we have to do is to tap into some of our happy memories that hold emotions for us such as love, compassion, acceptance, peace, gratitude, harmony, forgiveness, etc...  as we relive the memory or the emotion that we want to bring up we can bring those feelings into our bodies which will help to change the energy around us. Even thinking about someone we love can bring up emotions of love and joy. Upcoming events that we are excited about can also be used to activate the the emotional energy within us. 

Once the positive memory is triggered then it is a matter of focusing our attention on those chakras or different parts of the body that are in need of the energy. This is when we can then draw in that feeling that we remember letting it fill our hearts moving into the mind, body and soul aligning with this beautiful energy. With the intention in place the body's energy field begins to fill up with the positive energy moving through the physical body and throughout the aura. It does take some practice of holding on to the energy within oneself but after awhile you will began to train the energy field to hold on to those positive emotions for longer times. Then it becomes a habit which can be called upon with just a single thought or even trigger that can now replace a negative one.

 As energy beings not only in the physical realm but also the spiritual realm we can become more aware that we are able to change our own thought patterns and have the ability to step into our personal power. We are conscious beings, are we not? We have the choice to change our thoughts and release into ourselves and the world the positive language of energy that helps us all in creating more harmony within ourselves and each other. 

"Forgiveness"

Forgiveness is huge when growing not only spiritually but on all levels. If the biggest lesson in our lives is to learn to love unconditional then how can we even began to achieve that if we can not continue to work on forgiveness? I find forgiveness is something that likes to come back up in many different forms. Just when you think you have mastered it, there is always another situation or person that needs to be forgiven.

When you mention the word forgiveness thoughts of forgiving others tend to pop up but the first step in forgiving others is really about forgiving yourself. If we can't learn to forgive ourselves then there is hardly any hope to know how it is to forgive others. Forgiveness is learning that there are things in our lives that we have said, or done, or even done without realizing we were doing it that have hurt others, and ourselves. These are the lessons in our lives that if we can take the experience and really learn form, we can forgive to move on to higher ground.

It may sound easy but when you are in the middle of a situation it is sometimes hard to see in all directions. This is when you have to not only allow yourself to feel but to experience the humanity and compassion within the individual or the self. Learning to master ourselves sets us apart as human beings as we are able to chip away consciously at the inner diamond in the rough within ourselves to produce a brilliant gem.

Mark Twain once said "The worst loneliness is not being comfortable with yourself." Being comfortable with one's self is knowing one's self, forgiving one's self and loving one's self. It all works hand in hand and how we forgive to live
together.

"A Gift from the Heart"

One of the highest and most cherished acts that someone can do for another is to give something to someone with their whole heart. Lately it has come to my attention of wondering if we as individuals often give from our entire heart. What I mean by this is that there seems to be in no shape or form, any expectation of an outcome or idea of the other person's response. It is just what it is, a gift.

This made me think, so I began to talk to others as I wanted to know what their take on the subject was. When I did this some interesting conversations began to surface on the whole thought. As I began to visit with others I found a pattern that ran in between the lines that that was often expressed in all the conversations. Everyone that I talked to was in agreement that it is always good to give from the heart but an underlying question that came out was that, were we responsible for the outcome of the gift?

Now I know that question seems to be silly when you first hear it but when you break it all down there seems to be a pattern that runs with this line of thinking. For instance what if we gave money to someone who lived on the street, were we responsible for them going to buy liqueur instead of food? Were we by trying to help actually contributing to their addiction or habit?

The other part of this line of thinking that was brought up was that there were people who didn't seem to recognize the actual sacrifice of a gift and often discarded it without really understanding what was given to them. I think the word in this case was appreciation. An example that was brought up was someone taking the extra time to be there for someone else who was going through a rough time and the other person seemed only to feel that they were entitled. As I continued to explore the conversation about giving I was surprised at all the pit falls that I found in the discussions about not giving or even being afraid to give. This made me wonder if we as a society had really come to that place where we no longer gave without any expectation because of fear?

As I searched last week I came upon a passage in a book that I just happen to be reading called The Magus of Strovolos, by Kyriacos C Markides. In it the famous healer Daskalos talks about giving from the entire heart and that a gift that is given this way, in no way has any expectations on the outcome of the gift or the person receiving the gift. It is given out of pure love and only pure love. In that we are not responsible for the other person and any of their actions. We are only responsible for giving something from the heart with the intention of it being unconditional, that is what makes the gift really valuable.