Friday, December 31, 2010

In the Heart of Things

This morning I got up and visited with my husband drinking my cup of hot tea and just enjoying the morning. We sat in bed and he began to work on his laptop and I decided to watch a little TV and enjoy the rest of my tea and found a movie that I had been trying to finish this whole holiday season called "Love Happens"

I got in on the last 10 min which is where I left off a few days ago. What was interesting is that it is about a Grief speaker helping people and it was ending with him discovering something in himself. What touched me was the relationship between him and his father in law. Just before I noticed my eyes were wet and my heart opened up to the touching scene and this warm energy shot through the core of my being with this amazing feeling of it moving out through my skin.

The emotion was so beautiful and the heat that moved through my body and out into my outer energy field was loving and healing at the same time. I took a moment to stop and be aware of what was happening to me. This is something we all experience but mostly we are unaware as our emotions are so powerful that they move outside of ourselves and effect others.

Smiling to myself I felt good about how we all feel when we hear music, watch a move or experience a piece of art. It is powerful as it moves the energy around us and brings it alive.... Now the trick is to be able to focus of that powerful energy in a loving and healing way toward others to help bring healing in our world...... The connection is through the heart!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Collage of Life!

So I am taking a class on Monday nights and one of the projects is to make a vision board. It is supposed to be what you want out of life and what you see yourself doing that makes you happy and successful. So if you are a spiritual person then yours will reflect that and if you are a material person then it reflects that too or both.

The task is simple. Come up with what you dream about and find a few magazines that you can cut out. Or you may draw your own pictures on a board for you to see your goals. Ingenious as your subconscious mind sees most things in picture images and you can then connect to your Super Subconsciousness mind that is connected to everyone and everything this is what you want out of life.

It then tells the universe and the Creator this is what you want and like plugging into a computer for spell check it tries to match up your dream with the right spelling. "Ask and you shall receive" or manifesting....really all the same...

So my husband and I decided we would sit down this morning and do a vision board together since we are in transition is our own lives and there is lot of room for major changes. We sat down with our coffee, magazines and materials to create a family vision board. What we discovered is that we both had very different ideas of what we wish to do and create. It was so different that we decided to create our own vision boards as we could not come together on a dream.

After the third cup of coffee and lots of stressing out over what the other one was wanting in life and almost a upset of balance in the house. We suddenly stopped and realized that the reason we could not pull our resources together as both of our energies were being funneled in two very different directions. If we could not decide what we wanted together as a couple then what kind of message were we sending out?

Then what I call "Magic" took place.. that is when you realize that the other person is quite different than you and you began to listen to what they want and they listen and hear what you want. Wow!! Communication, compromise and respect for the other person and their needs and wants. Suddenly we were understanding what each of us were trying to live out in our own lives and understood. It was all clear and all on a collage of visual images cut out of paper.

We had just completed couples therapy 101 without the big price tag. To end the story I would like to say that we got it together and completed our collage on one poster board but we didn't. We each have our own collage and hung them up together side by side in our bathroom so we see it each day. We did agree that the combination of the two different ideas is not a bad thing but they do work hand in hand to create the same dream.


Thursday, May 20, 2010

A Gift of Love

today as I am driving to see a friend, I started to sing in the car which can be a little awkward when you stop at a stoplight and people look in your direction. But no one could hear me so I was singing at the top of my lungs when something beautiful hit me right square in the heart and connected my brain.

All I knew is that I was perfectly normal with my everyday concerns and the next thing I know, my heart is opening up as tears roll down my cheek and joy swells throughout my whole body. Next, my brain was somewhere in between space and where I was sitting at the light. (stop light)

The thought that went through my brain was a child holding their breath until they turn blue. I don't know about you but I have known at least one child in my life who did that which is an odd event.

Next, was my daughter playing the piano as I walked through the house listening to her emotions as her fingers struck the keys. But it is not the force of hitting the keys that betray her but rather it is the vibration of the notes that hang in the air that blend to create the sound.

What I realized was that love is like the notes in the air which are all around us in everything, every being, even in what we don't see but we like the child are holding the breath until our bodies turn blue. We hold it until we are starved and deprived of the oxygen that carries life through us. So I guess the question is....Are we really living when we are in that state?

The light did turn green and as I drove on, I started to assess my own life understanding that love was only a breath away.



Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Word Power

My father who passed away a year ago used to remind me when I visited him in South Texas that words have power not only written but spoken. I don't think that many are aware of just how much their spoken words not only affect their relationships but reveal who they are behind the mask.

No, I am not just talking about a Freudian slip but what you can learn about a person if you dare take the time to actually listen to the words and the way that person puts their words together. You may find that you have a key to a secret garden. If you listen without projecting your own experiences and really hear what is being said you find that you can then communicate on a whole new level.

If we look closer to we will find that we get careless and sling words around without realising how powerful our words are and disempower someone without knowledge of what we have done. I guess that is why teachers warn to stay in the moment. You have the choice to be aware what your own words can do.

Also, another aspect of the power in our words are when we speak our fears and concerns often without the intention of speaking our truth. The words slip out of our mouths and I am not talking about when we put our foot in our mouth that is something different. It is something that seems to come out often with the speaker being unaware that they have shared something so intimate about themselves that reveals the true depth of their relationship and a tear within their being.

It is truly amazing what words can do and I have only touched a tiny part of what they do in our lives. As you look into words you may find that they can empower, tear, impose, build, heal, create ourselves, others and the world around us. What do you do with your words?


Wednesday, April 28, 2010

In the Heart of Wounds

So this is something I had learned and found to be true. It is that we all have a wounded child living within us. No, not on a physical level although many may accuse others of that. But it is more on a mental or energy level. Yes, I am sure many of you already know about the inner child and some may have done some healing work with it but for those of you who wonder what I am talking about I wish to explain.

How many of us will be having an adult conversation when all of a sudden we get a reaction from the other person that is somewhere in left field? By this, I mean you may have by accident touched a trigger point which takes that other person back somewhere in their childhood that they in someway had experienced a wound. That means that the person you now are talking to is no longer the adult but the child with an open wound.

Now, you then experience a reaction from a child's point of view because the adult has never healed or understood that the open wound still exist therefor your conversation has turned into pouring salt on the wound and the reaction is dramatic. So now you are having this conversation with a two year old, a five year old, a thirteen year old or what ever age that other person had the experience.

This is where your compassion comes in if you are able to recognize that the other person is no longer with you but reliving an experience from their past. First and most important thing is not to take anything they say personally as they are speaking from the heart of their own wounds and if your intentions were not to wound then you are on solid ground. Take a step back and analyze your own feelings with the understanding that they may say something to spark your inner wounds or child.

Allow yourself to take a time out if you need to knowing that what the other person is experiencing is very real to them. Take care of yourself and be gentle with your feelings and emotions as they are not thinking but reacting from a trigger. You may not be in a position to heal them or even make things right but you are in a position to understand where you are.

So many of us have these wounds and we often without thinking speak from these open wounds not realizing the damage that it is causing in ourselves and our relationships with others. As we each become aware and awaken we begin to realize that we have choices and that we can heal from those painful experiences while granting grace to others. This is another small step towards healing and understanding those around us. Although, if we all took such a small step it would change the world around us.


Tuesday, April 6, 2010

They say that the eyes are the windows of the soul which was something my father told me when I was a small child. What does that mean? I remember thinking when I tried to understand what my father was talking about. What was a soul and how did that relate to me?

It wasn't until I was much older in life that I was able to sit still enough in a quiet space to feel my own inner being. I was able to feel some of my own essence that I was made out of and it wasn't until I could feel it trying to lift out of my body that I understood that my body and my soul were not the same. Both occupied the same space and yet they were separate.

So what does the soul feel like you might ask? Well, it feels like when you are listening to music that you really like and you can feel a slight vibration inside and outside your body. It feels like a slight tingling inside that moves through out your whole body.

I believe that is why we truly love music is that it is able to vibrate within our bodies simulating the same sensation that we feel when we are able to feel what it is like to be who we really are. Yes, there is music that makes us feel not so good and in that case you might get the same sensation when you are around someone that you just don't feel comfortable around.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

The Circle of Life

I don't know about you but in the past I have not really given a lot of thought of the food that I have been placing in my mouth. I did know that vegetables and the lower fat food is much better for maintenance. I understood that the body knows how to break down the food in my body and make it into fuel.

Then there is the understanding that the food that we put in our bodies might not be the right food and that when it breaks down the body throws it out because it can't use it therefor by not eating the right food we can starve ourselves even though we eat massive amounts of it.

Of course we all know that food has preservatives, hormones and pesticides in it so that we need to watch out for that. And a lot of us go Organic and watch where we buy our meat. No that was not the problem as I have taken classes and nutrition all though my life. Food is something we can not live without and something that even with all the research and new ways to keep it preserved we are still learning how it works.

About two months ago I was enjoying a nice glass of white wine with my friends over a dinner party and it was there in the middle of eating and discussion that I raised my glass up to my lips to take a sip. That was when it felt like time stopped for just a few seconds and a knowing came over me that the sip I was about to take was more then just a sip of wine. It was a form of liquid energy that would merge into my body and into my whole life force that is more than just my body.

This was then followed by a thought that if I took that sip, that is what I would become as that is what I am putting into my body and energy field. Not bad or good just an awareness of the whole process of putting something into my mouth. Next, my attention whet to my plate and a scene of the meat being prepared and the fear that the animal experienced came rushing into my body that I looked up to see if anyone was watching.

I could not only see it but felt it..... I pushed my plate aside but as fast as this happened I was able to turn it off so that I was not as aware of what was going on as we all talked and moved on to the next course. It was not until a few days later that I was reminded yet again of what I was placing in my mouth and was able to reflect on what had happened and that in some way this was a lesson for me to pay attention to......

As a lesson goes this was what I learned form the experience is that food is not just food or fuel but it is far more important than that. It is a merging of energy and the energy that the food carries are not just the physical form that we see and break down in our stomachs but it is also a life force of energy surrounding and in our whole being.

There is a movie that comes to mind called "Like Water for Chocolate". In it the story line is about a young woman who is in love and is forbidden to marry so she turns to food as a release of her passion. As she creates and prepares this food she puts into it everything that she feels for her beloved causing quite stir as people who eat her cuisine find that they to feel her passion.

It has been years since I saw this movie but being reminded of it helped me to understand that the person who is creating the food puts a lot of their own energy into it. The animal or vegetable has its own energy and it is no wonder why we have so much trouble with our stomachs and digestion when so much emotional energy is put into our mouths.

We are finding that not only do we have our physical bodies but we also have emotional energy that can also play a big part in our health affecting us mentally, emotionally or physically. So what happens when we add everyone else's emotional energy to the pot?

Please, know that energy can be changed with intention so prayer is huge......


Monday, March 29, 2010

The Dark side of the Soul

Wow, it has been way too long since I last wrote in this blog. I had decided to take some time off to work on some special things in my life and am now just getting back. One of the wonderful things that I was able to learn is about the Dark side of the soul.

I learned that we as humans were blessed with this wonderful soul that is the real us and that we often can get lost in so much that binds us here on this earth that we may lose some of our light. The truth is that we are able to find that light when we let go of the dense energy that keeps us weighted down. For many it is a heavy burden.

I also learned that we as souls of light are able to find our way back to the light and source when we are lost in all the dense energy that tries to darken our souls. So much pain and so much sadness when we are trapped in such a state.

Just last month I was able to go to a beautiful wedding in India and had the chance to visit the Taj Mahal. So there I was at this beautiful wonder of the world and right in front of the steps leading up is this baby puppy only a few weeks old walking over to greet everyone. The man who was tieing up the trash gives the puppy a big kick and send is crying to get out of the way.

Many were astonished and I was suprised and let out a shriek where the Man looked at me like I was crazy..... another guest ran over and started petting the puppy. It dawned on me that people can get to be so low that even kicking a small animal or hurting someone else can be an everyday today affair with no after thoughts as they are already as low as one could go. A soul that is carrying such energy of darkness and has lost it appreciation for life and recognizing another life form as a creation from the divine.

Wow, this made me look at my own